well, really I do but I always forget or I don't have anything to write.

I live a pretty boring life, readers. I get the girls ready for school, I go to the grocery, I go to the gym (anxiety central), I sometimes run at the park, when the girls get home we talk about school and then I make dinner and we hang out and do our own thing. I don't have much of a life to blog about and I haven't been getting anything to review lately. I did get some pretty nice e-juice I could review. I think I'll do a post about that. Maybe today. I need to take some pictures.

I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia finally. It's nice to have a doctor agree with what you thought was going on. I have a pain creme to use right now but it's a hassle to put on. I may be looking into injections to keep the pain away. I can't use the medications for Fibro because they are generally SSRI based and there's always the risk that they will throw me into a manic state. That's not something that I'm willing to risk when I've got myself semi-stable. I still have down days, especially when the fibro flares up on me, but it's more like 1 or 2 days a week as opposed to 4-5. Sometimes you have to just be happy with what you can get.

I saw an endocrinologist recently. I don't have any positives or negatives yet. He changed my thyroid medicine and wants lab work in 6 weeks then wants to see me in 8 weeks to see how I'm doing. So far the fatigue has gotten a little worse. My weight refuses to budge, my hands and feet are still so dry it's almost painful sometimes, even though I put lotion on them all the time, my hair isn't growing back in as thick as it was, my nails are pitiful. Any time they get a little bit of free edge, it breaks. It just bends and breaks at any little thing. One thing I question though, I think I heard the Endo say TSH is the only indicator of hypo thyroid and if he did say that, I've got a doctor who doesn't know what he's talking about and need a new one. The tests he ordered include T4 and free T3 though, so maybe he didn't say that. Maybe he said, "isn't". I hope so.

I've decided I'm tired of being out of shape. I've started C25K and some strength training. I'm basically doing the same strength training routine I was doing when I was going to Medfit but I think next time I go into the Y I'm going to ask one of the Wellness Coaches to make up a workout for me. There are so many machines that I don't use that I would like to incorporate into my workout. I'm just not sure what they do and I would like to know before I jump onto them.

I've started the T25 program. I've good things about it from a friend. I started it on a Thursday and the calendar starts on a Monday so I'm going to wait and start over Monday. I'm going to be doing it on top of my usual gym workouts. Hopefully I'll start seeing some results. I'm not optimistic. My diet is atrocious. Some days I can manage to stay below my calories but there are many days when I go over. I usually try to do extra to burn it off when I go over but most days it's late night eating that gets me. I need to talk to my psychiatrist and see if there's anything we can add that can curb my appetite so I don't do that. It's wrecking any progress I make.

I'm on the semi-injured list right now. Last Friday I ran/walked 3.6 miles doing C25K plus a little extra because the track I was on doesn't end when C25K does and I had to finish it out. I felt fine Friday but Saturday when I woke up it was hard to put weight on my right foot. Pain was going across the middle of it and up to my ankle when I took a step. Tuesday I thought it was better and I could run through the little bit of pain that was left but I was wrong, it wasn't ready. It seems to be a little better now. I did T25 cardio yesterday and there's a lot of hopping and jogging and there wasn't any shooting pain. Maybe by Monday I'll be able to start C25K Week 3 Day 1.

I'm not going to lie, I'm scared of Week 3. I had a lot of trouble with Week 2. Week 3 cuts out 30 seconds of walking time. It's the same running time, 1.5 minutes just less walking time. I'm still not doing very well in the breathing department and I get very bad dry mouth. I think I'm going to have to start running with a water bottle. When I'm on the treadmill I have a bottle of water right there with me, outside I usually have to wait until I get back to my truck and take a break. I don't want to take breaks though. I want to be able to run it all the way through. I'm thinking of taking my inhaler next time I run at Perrin Park and see if it helps me any with my breathing.

I'm still vaping, I'm thinking of lowering my nicotine level with my next order. It'll probably make me go through juice faster but I need to learn to moderate myself. I need to get down to a low level. Preferably 0. That would be great. I recently ordered a sample pack from Vape Wild and it's wonderful. I'll try to throw a review up soon. If I remember.

I think that's it. My apologies for being a terrible blogger. I don't think anyone actually reads this anyway.

but my health depends on it and vaping is easy.

This post is similar to my usual posts, but a little different.

I'm trying to quit smoking (yay me!) but anyone who has ever tried knows, it's just HARD. So this time around I decided I'd start vaping. So far I'm doing ok. I fall off sometimes when my anxiety gets too high. I'll have the occasional cigarette but I go right back to vaping. You can't pass up on the ease and the flavors. So many yummy flavors.

I have to admit, there's a lot about smoking that I don't miss. The ashes, that smell. Always needing a lighter. Those looks from non-smokers. The sinus infections and ear pain. The nasty taste in my mouth. Vaping has so many pros I'm not sure I could list them right now. That's not what this post is about though. This post is a review. Recently I branched out from my usual juice company and ordered a sample pack from a company called The Juice Wytch. They had a stellar sale on their sample pack and I couldn't pass it up.

In the sample pack I received four 5ml bottles, each a different flavor. Included were samples of their Alchemist Blends line.The line consists of Hex (not included), Chalice, Elixir, Altar, and Divine. The Alchemist Blends line is Juice Wytch's premium juice line and is quite delicious.

You can jump to their website for a description of each of their juices, I'm just going to focus on this one: Altar.

Altar is listed as "a bakery cinnamon and custard that will leave you wanting more!" At first I wasn't too sure about trying it. My experience with cinnamon juices has been that they are strong and not really for me. I decided to give it a go though. Let me tell you, I'm glad I did. It's something like a sugar cookie, but not quite as sweet. The cinnamon is subtle but still there. The custard stays with you but doesn't overpower. It's a little like eating a donut. It's not airy like many juices I've tried but it's not thick and gaggy like a cheesecake juice I've tried in the past. I've got to say, I love this juice. I usually stay away from premium juices because I can't help but think, "How can I justify paying the higher price when I can get perfectly fine juice at a cheaper price?" Well guys, I just found out how I can justify it. It's worth it. That's what it comes down to. 

I briefly tried two other juices in the sampler pack, Elixir and Chalice. Elixir is a decent juice. A little too fruity for me. My boyfriend seems to like it. He has vaped most of it. I can't give Chalice the review it deserves because the tank I used needs a new coil and it tainted the flavor. I can say the strawberry flavor in it was very good and tasted very true. I will give it another try when I get new coils and can give it a real chance with nothing messing with its flavor. 

I've got to say, since I've started vaping it's like my eyes have opened to a whole new world. If you are a smoker and you're considering smoking I highly suggest you consider smoking. You control your nicotine level and slowly wean yourself down, in a similar manner to patches except you still feel like you're smoking so your hands are busy and you have this whole world of flavor at your fingertips. If you would like information, feel free to comment and ask me anything. If I don't know I will find out for you. 

Make sure to check out Juice Wytch if you're a current vaper looking for something to try. Order a sampler and find out for yourself!

Disclaimer: All products in this post were bought by myself. All reviews in this post are my own. I was not compensated for this post and was not asked to make this post. You will never find a review on this site that is not 100% honest and doesn't come straight from me. I can not be bought :)

and sometimes, I disappear completely.

I'm a terrible blogger. When I was younger I always had half started journals lying around waiting for me to pick them up again and begging me to finish them off. To give them some kind of closure. I rarely did.

I've thought of this blog a time or two. I told myself I needed to post something; even if know one read it I would know it was there.

It's been a hectic couple of months. Maybe I will turn February and March into a post. The Great Bed Bug War of 2014. That was a miserable couple of months. Lesson learned, never accept furniture from anyone. Not even family (or step-family as was my case).

School is winding down and it's time for amusement parks, zoo trips, and days spent at the aquatic center being lazy and soaking up vitamin D. I have some things to review, I should have some pictures to post. I have some bipolar related posts I think, although things have mostly been on the up side. Not level by any means but I haven't reached the darkest side in a long time. That's a very good thing. I'll take gray over black any day.

I've also switched from smoking cigarettes to vaping. Not a complete victory but a small one. I've won a small battle in the war. Maybe I'll do some posts about that too. I'm no expert by any means but I can give my amateur opinion.

I guess this is my way of saying I'm back, although I'm not sure anyone knew I was gone. See ya around, blog.